Will you...?

This seemingly human woman has found herself at a loss for words. In my 29 years of existance I have been both the sinner and the saint. I admit this openly. Too often I have found the line between the two thinner than warm maple syrup sliding on a buttery hot pancake. In an instant the drawn line melts into the bubbling batter and you are no longer able to seperate the truth from the fiction. In my life it is the very truth that has left me asking the most questions. I have found truth to be the most dramatic. The tricky part is finding people stupid enough or brave enough to speak truth without fear of judgement. Lying to others is easy, but lying to ourselves, even easier. Waking up one day and erasing all the grey like these very words, you are left to look at the black and white and well, the truth isnt always pretty and no one likes to see there ugly selves. Think of it this way, you rolled out of bed and ran to the grocery store to grab some much needed items. You didnt shower, Lord knows what you have thrown on from the dirty laundry pile. You arrive and fill your cart with ice cream, feminine products and than around the corner comes the man you have been lovestruck over for months. What do you do? HIDE! He cannot see you like this! you have been waiting to casually run into him BUT not under THESE conditions! Well, congrats, you have officially lost your chance. You now will never get married becasue you were too scared to be seen vulnerable and messy, but hey at least you can live for the rest of your life beautiful and alone. I would rather be told the ugly truth than beautiful lies. Life happens in truth. Personal conviction happens in truth. Growing as a person CAN happen in truth. The real question is, will you allow it to change you? Will you allow lessons to teach you? Will you allow failures to build you? Will you allow truth to free you? Will you step outside your comfort zone and thrive or will you stay simply existing? Thank goodness rambling is accepted in blogging, or at least I think it is. I mean, its MY thoughts and they come as random as roulette numbers. I guess we will see where the next spin takes me...